trapped in a bell jar

Esther felt trapped under a bell jar because she is stuck in a part of her life and she can look out and is overwhelmed and every one else is looking in and telling her where to go. Esther is lost in her like and every one is telling her to go in a different direction. It is like what she says on page 185 at the beginning of chapter 15. Esther says “If Mrs. Guinea had given me a ticket to Europe, or a round the world cruise, it wouldn’t have made one scrap of difference to me because wherever I sat – on the deck of a ship or at a street café in Paris or Bangkok – I would be sitting under the same glass bell jar, stewing in my own sour air.” This shows how she is stuck in this place and she cant seem to get out of it and even though people might be trying to help her she is on her own in this spot alone.

the new asylum

The new asylum that Esther goes to is like country clubs for people to live at that need help mentally. The new asylum has a golf course and lots of land to go out and walk it also offers a chance for people to go out to town, see movies and go shopping. This is vary different from the state hospital that Esther was at. At the last asylum she was up in a big wing with other mentally ill people. The last asylum is also in a hospital in the city that does not allow for people to go out. If Esther was forced to stay at this asylum she might have vary well-gone crazy. Esther was not given a chance to get better at the city hospital because she was lock up and not given the chance to get out and to feel better. At the new asylum Esther is getting treated and getting the chance to get better at the same time.

killing her self

Esther is lost in a world and is finding there is now way out but death. She is not going crazy but more on the side of lost hope. She went from having goals like having sex to looking for a point to life. The problem is that she stresses out so much about her future she just break down. When she thinks she is never going to find a point for life is when the idea of killing her self comes up. She has worked hard her whole life to get where she is and she feels she has gotten no were. It is at this point that she tries to kill her self. Just by luck her multiple steps fail that is in till she overdoses of her medicine. Her last attempt was the mast successful of all her attempts and it is just by luck that she lives throw that one.

Dr. Gordon (lies)

Esther does not like Dr. Gordon. Esther thinks that Dr. Gordon thinks that she is crazy and is going to lock her up. Esther get paranoid about this thought and hides things from Dr. Gordon. Esther hides the problem in how she has not been able to write and some other things. When she does tell Dr. Gordon things he makes her go in for shock therapy. In shock therapy all they do is electrocute you till you almost die to make your mind work the right way. It is bad that she did not tell Dr. Gordon about her problems earlier. But in a way by not telling Dr. Gordon about the problems Esther saved her self from pointless pane of the shock therapy.

lost and coming home

Esther is changed when she comes home to Boston. She does not want to do thing but is lost in a transition in her life. She has discovered that the New York experience is not what she wanted. Esther makes this discovery when Marco tries to rape Esther. She finds that she does not want to be that type of person. She then goes back to the hotel where she takes all her clothes to the roof of the hotel and let them float away in the breeze. The next day when she gets home she is in the beginning of a change in her life. She does not know what she wants to be, but that she wants to write. She tries to start a novel but finds she has nothing to write about. She feels she needs some more advancers to write about and to experience the world.

Esther's love for Constantin

Esther meets Constantin and is in love with him immediately. In this love Esther wants to have Constantin to make love to her. Esther decides to let Constantin seduce her. Constantin is not interested in seducing Esther. Constantin is romantic but at the same time proper. Esther gives up after she sees that Constantin does not share her same interest in her. Ester loves Constantin and says that his is the first time she has been truly happy since she was nine. Esther is somewhat let down by Constantin and is sad that see did not get more out of Canstantin. This is odd because she does not like Buddy because he had an affair but that is what see want her with a man we can assume is the pure that she wanted from Buddy.

Esther's feelings for buddy

Esther’s first impression of Buddy if different then her feeling she has for him now. At first Esther thinks that Buddy is the best guy in the world. She thinks he is young, smart and pure. She is in love with him in till she finds the truth out about him. She was hoping that he would love her and settle down together. This is not what happens though. After Esther ask Buddy if he has had a affair before and his answer revels a side Esther does not like. Esther finds out Buddy has had an affair and had sex a lot. This is not what Esther wants she wants some one who is pure. It is at this time that Buddy gets TB so Esther does not get to tell Buddy how she feels now. The way she feels now about Buddy is that he is a hypocrite and is not a good person to be with.

not liking new york

Esther’s feeling about her time in New York are not of what you would think a person in her place would feel. She thinks the city is interesting but hates the whole thing at the same time. What she is felling is the effect the city can have on some people, especially a woman who up till now has never left New England. The vast difference from that to the city is taking it toll on her. She also hates her time in New York because she is treated in a way that people do not want, she has plans on where to be and when and almost what to think already made for her. She is also different from the other women with her she is not a materialistic and thinks more deeply then the others.

pleasantville

Pleasantville, in the movie, is a quiet town where every thing is simple and innocent. In the movie the people know what they need to know and that’s it. No one knows the out side world because there is none for them. This is seen with the books that are empty. They are empty because Pleasantville is it own world in its self. Pleasantville is also innocent in that the town’s people have never done anything wrong. The worst that the people have done is holding hands they have never herd of sex ether. Also the people are innocent in that no one breaks the law or does any thing bad or hurtful. Pleasantville is unappealing in that every one is perfect. In the way that it make it appealing are the same things making it unappealing

Values in I love Luce

In the TV show I Love Luce they talk about many values. Although it is a comedy it has a big relation to real like. In all of the episodes one of the characters gets in to trouble. It is at the end of the episode that the values are address. It was also the first show to have a women lead the show this in its self help teach women’s rights and ability to be equal to men which is a rising issue of the day. The show also showed the idea that life was not always a perfect family but that some times people got in to situations and got in trouble. The show also showed the value of forgiveness because in the end of most episodes Ricky forgives Luce.

the Internment camps

The internment camps in California during World War II are part of the ugly side of US history. This comes at a time when fear and blame out ruled logic and sensibility. When his happens the consequences can be startling. This is why US history has left this out with little to no mention. We would like to forget are mistake and look at that of what Germany did. But what we did was just a few steps lower then that of what Germany did. What was done to Asians and Asian-Americans was not ethical or smart though it might have gotten some Japanese supporters, it tore a hole in the people and the ideas of the United states. We took incident people and imprisoned them on thought and belief. We defied are own constitution and did what are funding fathers tried to prevent. This is also similar to what the United States did to Muslim-Americans after September 11. Although not to the extent of internment we have some of the same fears and done some of the same actions as we did to the Asian-Americans.